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This weather has me so sick, Its hot then its cold, and throw a dash of random rain storn in there. But there is nothing quite like throwing up right after your long shitf, into your lunch pail on the bus. Lucky for me i kept is classy, and made it unnoticed. SO what do you think i do, i am headed out to the parks, because today is making HISTORY. Magic Kingdom is open 24 hours!!! and truth be told, i just want the shirt, but lets hope i make unscathed :)

People of the world: SPICE UP YOUR LIFE

So its official i have no sense of time anymore. My weekends are not weekends anymore, and I feel like all i do is work, eat, sleep repeat. which i guess isn't that all that bad, I would be doing the same thing at home, but i was getting ready, I am so glad there is not anyone to record me getting ready, its like a dance party/jam out session. Which is probably why it takes me so long to get ready in the morning. MY life would be such a different world with out music. Music is.... i don't think i can even describe my relationship with music. Music can convey so much, i think its why we dance to music. Dancing is such a intimate thing. I hope that i never become too old to dance in my underwear, and belt out some Spice Girls.  Growing up stinks.  I think things were so much easier when i was in Elementary School. I hate all this hating that happens when we grow up, we hate the gays, the whites, the black, at this rate who do we not hate. I am so tried of this all, i am meeting so many people out side of my world. I thought my life was rough, but hearing their stories, of being harassed for being who they are. Its breaks my heart. I could of not made it trough it. Its just another example that we are never given more than we can handle. I was able to take the things in my life, I was able to grow and move on. I would not of taken those mean words. I am so proud of those kids who were able to overcome, and for the ones who don't...my heart goes out to you.

This has to stop. It is not ok, how can these people sleep at night, I could never treat someone this way. I want to badly to find everyone who has ever been treated poorly and give them a hug, and what Keshia tell them that it will get better? WHo am i to say it will get better, when it doesn't look like it will get better... I don't understand the world we find ourself in.

a serious moment

Running gets real tiring, especially when you have no clue what you are running to. I knew I was running away when I came to Florida. I know my life was causing more problems for me. I was not happy in school, work, or in my family. I was sick constantly, I couldn't sleep throughout the night. I was always saying i was someday going to get away. I just had to finish this first, or i can't leave my job. I still have those things linking in the back of my brain somewhere. The problem is now, i did leave it all behind. I left it and moved across the country. My world didn't collapse. I am happy here. Happy most days. The real problem is i know going back home is like a black hole. Sure i will be doing the same things, not even bad things, school, work, but its with out my future. I know i made the right decision coming here, i don't know why I was supposed to come to Orlando, and what exactly i am to learn from being down here. The question haunting me today is, "what's next" where do i go from this point. Obviously i can't stay here forever (its not an option, already checked that out. ;)

I am for the most part sure of what  I want to study not, I have always found sign language thrilling. But i was at work watching the Beauty and the Beast on Stage, and they were translating. IT was so beautiful.  I know my school has an excellent ASL program, i am in it. but i can't handle Twin, actually my body can't handle what Twin does to my body. the logical question would be "where else can i go to study ASL" you would be surprised how few options there are out there. So who knows where i will end up, or what i will be doing. Its going to rely a lot on the Lord hoping he nudges me in the right direction.

As for nudging, i am so glad that I got to speak with my BEST FRIEND, Megan. Its weird thinking that we are all grown up. when not that many years ago, we were staying up all night talking, and talking about boys, and all sorts of young stuff. Know Megan is married, i am working for Disney. life is a crazy crazy thing.

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy, they are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom. Marcel Proust

To Begin my more tales of happy adventures. YOu must realize that i have the greatest girls in the world!  SO on any given day, I have no idea what i will come home too.  I had one of the worst days thus far while working for the mouse. I came home to a huge fort built, in out living room. We then proceeded to enjoy it till the wee hours of the morning watching movies, eating cookies and talking about life. I am so thankful for these girls. They have truly make my life down here truly worth all the sacrifices.   know that they will always be a part of my life.

So any given day our morning look something like this, complaining about having to go to work, and something that happens that makes us nearly pee our pants <3

SO Orlando walmarts, are all sorts of backwards, i am just starting to get the hang of it, This is the back of walmart. the frozen food is in the back....weird! NOn the the less shopping at one in the morning is sure to be an adventure.

Random fact about Florida, it rains......and people go CRAZY! its like they have never seen rain before. I literally hid for hours on time just so the don't get wet. The funny part it won't even really be raining yet it is just tinkling. It did intact make a fun adventure to Downtown Disney!

Valentines day was a success, and i love my people <3 they make me so happy!

Rough days are among us

I have found that i am terribly home sick, no not home sick, i am perfectly content where i am...I am people sick. I think i am the only person in the world that cries in walmart because she wants to go home. Let along talk about the fit I threw last night because my "bed" if that is what you would like to call it is not comfortable and i so greatly wanted to be home in my bed. The excitement has officially worn off, while don't get me wrong i still enjoy my job, and i have my great friends here, it doesn't come close to what i have back home. Home for me is where my heart is, I miss my sisters so much! I miss my friends. I miss people who truly understand my weirdness, and think it is adorable, rather than the weird looks i get here. On the same token i don't know what going home means, I don't know where that will leave me. THere ae so many obstacles i left behind that i am not looking forward to facing again. The Keshia I left behind is not the same keshia i see when i look in the mirror. I look in the mirror now and i see, i am not so sure what i see. This i do know, i am growing and becoming better with each passing day. Each day i battle my past, and take a step forward. Even as a i take a few steps back. I am ready to take on those challenges, if i am anything i am stubborn, I recognize the my life isn't in Twin Falls anymore, I don't know where I belong right now, but i have a lifetime to figure it out.

tough times never last but tough people do

Today was a more rough day, then easy.  I woke up know that it was the going to be a crummy day, it was a day to think about mortality.
Then it hurt because, I miss my sisters SO much. I want them to have this same experience. I want them to feel the sunshine, i want them to explore disney with me. I want to share secrets.  I want to share laughs and giggles. It is as though a part of me, is missing, a huge hole that i can't seem to fill. Then i remember i am paving the way for them, by going out of my comfort zone i am showing them that there is a world out there, and we can visit. That your dreams really can be met. If you had told 5 year old Keshia that one day I would be working at Disney! I would be the happiest girl in the WORLD, if you had told 16 year old, heck if you had tole 19 year old Keshia that I would be working in FLORIDA, and i would have done it myself! I would of never believed that it was possible. But here i am, front and center, facing new situations i never would of found myself in back home. I am making new friends that are quickly become the dearest, and the sort to be life friends <3 I am learning more and more about myself. THings i thought i wasn't' capable of I am now doing. Keshia who is terribly shy talks to strangers on a daily basis. I grocery shopped via the bus (WHICH I DON'T RECOMMEND)  it was not a a good venture!  and TODAY  MY ROOMATE WAS HIT BY A DEER, I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THAT THERE WERE DEER IN FLORIDA!!!!

THe world goes, on... I am so glad the i am the forgiving person that I am. I am glad that I was able to have a positive outlook, rather then be bitter about the way my life has played out. I am glad that I am ME. I am glad that for every challenge that has come before me. Because each of those challenges taught me a new lesson. A lesson i have taken with me to be what i am now. and who i am now is who i want to be. I am in the right place, at the right time, with the right people.

Anyone's life truly lived consists of work, sunshine, exercise, soap, plenty of fresh air, and a happy contented spirit.

I am just a summer girl, i wear my flip flops, and when i wear my hair down thats when the party starts. and who needs a boyfriend i got my girlfriends.

So here i am following two days off and I am about to head to work and i had some thoughts to put down. I am so thankful for my best friends, she is there for me even when she is across the country and i happen to be crying in taco bell. I have no idea what i would do with out that girl. She picks me up when i don't want to stand anymore, when i am about to throw in the towel she pushes me forward. I have no idea what i did to deserve her, but i will spend my whole life, thanking God for sending her to me.  I wish she was here with me to enjoy this sunshiny, we actually its more on the chilly side, no sun shine for this girl <3

Again a picture tells a thousand words <3

in one day i went to Hollywood and saw lightning McQueen save the day!

Went to Morocco and took a shot at belly dancing :)

 hung out with Lizzy pants

back to hollywood and did some shopping 

took a nice little ride in the a forbidden police car <3 thanks random cast member for opening in the gate for us. We are the only ones who have this shot, unless they broke the rules :)

went to the beach club, where we had to check out the bathroom, and for comic relief to all you who read this other than myself. I wanted to take the really cool towels home but had no other place them my shirt <3 .....don't worry i didn't take the towels....

i love the beach!!!! even if it is a fabricated beach and your not allowed to swim in it either, oh and there was probably gators in there somewhere

FLorida has given my my first blister and splinter...thank you Florida thank you!
 I ended my days off with some outlet shopping, grocery shopping and a girls night in with masks and a movie. I think it is safe to say that i love my life here in FLorida. Feel free to come visit <3

Quote by Lillie Langtry