Blogging about Blogging

So I am back into the good 'ol Twinky Flats, I am working slowly to get back on my feet, after my big move back from Florida. I started school which brings me to the point of this nonsense. I am taking English 102 and I am reading tons of articles about the "INTERNET" Facebook, twitter….and now BLOGING. "Teach what you think you know", I am pretty sure i don't know much of anything. I know that life is always changing and you got to roll with the punches.  Coming home was so different then I imagined. I didn't realize till now how wrapped up I was with working at the club. It was so unhealthy for me. It took over my life, and now looking back it has caused me to loose contact with so many friends I had. Starting over is looking the past in the eye, and telling it to go….well not sure where, but it can sure go there.

HERE IS TO A NEW START.
 a few goals to work on this semester.

1. I want a 4.0, I want this so badly. I am determined to get back on track with school. considering how I am only taking two classes…it better not be that hard :) 
2. I want my own place. I am ready to grow up. I want to settle in. maybe just maybe put something on a wall
3. expand my wardrobe this may sound super silly, but it not something I am good at.
4. Health insurance i need to take care of myself. I have and always will be way to hard on my body
5. Journal i am so upset the i didn't journal when i was in florida. I had every intention of doing it, and now things are fuzzy. it is so important.

bright light, big city

So I now have 21 days till I make my big venture home. This near fact has me stumped at every level! I never imagined getting this close. My brain can't believe it. And you better be sure I have yet to pack a single item :) I have made the best of friends, I have been blessed to work with the most caring people, and had the cherrised opportunity to learn from those around me.

With all things, I have to be truly honest. Those that i "play" with down here in my disney play ground, I find sometimes to be "not a worldly" as me. I love them to bits, but most of them have never left home to go to school. Had to pay rent, buy their own gas. While I think its wonderful that they have such supporting parents, sometimes they fail to see the bigger picture. Like parasailing :) Its just that in the real world, people like me we can't just go blow large sums of money, when we have something else big to pay for (say like a trip across the country).  For this girl it really, sucks because I have worked so hard, so that I can do the things that I want. Although I have learned that everything in life has a silver lining. SO i didn't get to go parasailing......but I did go to the BEACH (my new love) and to a Major League Baseball game!!!! and stumble into a TRAIN CONCERT! I got to do these things with wonderful people that are so DEAR TO MY HEART <3

In the end, I enjoyed every minute (ok maybe not every minute, but a whole lot of them)

They say a picture is worth a 1000 words, i will let them speak for me. (in no order)

Out of 4 parks, i thought i would least like Animal Kingdom, oh but I love it soooo much!

 ON the 4th of July we wanted hot dogs soooo bad! so we made our own, even if the black lines were not present. They still tasted DELICIOUS! 

 Elizabeth, is so much more then just a roommate, she deal with me and my crazy moodswings, and lets me drag her around <3

 Animal kindgom in the rain......wanna see out game face?

 Every year i make 4th of July strawberries, this year was no different, i just fed them to more nationalities 

 Pancakes, watch the video, sure to knock your socks off!

 Late night pizza parties!

 TRAIN CONCERT!! and two marriage proposals!

 We love to swim, 4th of JUly cast party.....that kinda sucked but oh well!

 II SAW CIRQUE DU SOLEIL!

 My First MLB game!

 TRAIN <3

 My Favorite New Yorkers!

 tThey had this board for kids to color on, and well i had to leave my mark!

 llook closely!

 MAAAMMMMMAAA DI!

 PPost beach, and all cleaned up!

 One AMAZING woman!

 Beach bums

 Paula my spanish friend

 Midnight swims

Box office for CIRQE

 Terra came, we had a blast

 I went home and visited my family

 met the cast of finding memo the musical

 <3 sooo big!

 Amazing people left

 new people came

 some you want to keep around

 MLB

 I will eat around the world. Mexico down!

 We work so HARD

 we have so much fun

we are the best of friends 

we make memories that will last a lifetime 

the magic

tthe music

and US

in the end they say you see the light

My time here in Florida is coming to an end. I am so thankful i came down, i met people i will cherish for lifetimes to come, and i have met people who have taught me its ok to stand up for myself. I am just a little bit stronger, a little bit braver, and a whole hell of a lot more confident, that I can do things on my own.
Being here taught me I don't want to do this my whole life, I don't want to work minimum wage, and pay check to paycheck. I want nice things, and a nice home. Home is what I want most of all, Granted I want to travel, but what is traveling if you have nothing to come HOME to. SO the solution is to go back to school. I think i am ready this time. I am ready to assert myself, dig myself out of the hole i got myself in to and get my degree. Not sure what i want to study yet, but we will find out.
Tomorrow...errr. today is my day off, now lets go see if i can find myself some trouble :)

I am young and under paid

Pet peeve time!  So I hate when people use their past as an excuse why they can't do something. I don't care, you can! You can make the choice, you can leave the situation, you can move on, you can do anything you truly put your mind to. Believe me I know what having a shitty past means, True it never leaves you but you don't have to put in you pocket, and pull it out all the time. Put it in a nice little box, and label it as what ever you want, things to change, mistakes not to make, be the chain breaker. every past is different. 
I do understand pain, I understand there is that day. I have nearly 21 years of experience on the matter, It took me such a long time to get to this point. 


on a more positive note, I am so content right now, I have a great not real date last night with my wonderful friend Fred<3 his boyfriend was working so we spent the day together. We went swimming, and watched AVENGERS, and ate dinner at Downtown Disney, and watched wishes. There is something so intoxicating about the feel of Disney down here. I love it, I can spend the rest of my life coming here.


and what it all comes down to. is that no ones really got it figured out just yet
and everything is going to be quite alright.

small town girl, BIG CITY

So I have been in Florida for some time now, and I am have noticed a few things about people.  when I introduce my self, "have a magical day, where you folks visiting from," "insert random place i have no idea where is" "awesome, I am from Idaho." "oh where they make potatoes" " me yea -.-"

99% of the time i get some sort of potato reference. I don't think i have even SEEN a potato field.


I love it when...
when people complain about the "crazy wind"- never been to Idaho have you??
when people give me weird looks for always having a jacket. - the sun goes down the heat goes off in Idaho
I explain that you can use the heater and ac in one day, and they don't believe me
people don't understand, why i don't believe the weather reports, because at home it could be sunny then a snow day
CONSTRUCTION: you have no idea. Welcome to Idaho: under construction
And last but not least Yes, BSU has a blue field. 
I have to explain road etiquette, and how we actually use it in Idaho


As much as I don't want to go home, I miss Idaho. People are so polite, Idaho has this wonderful charm. Its beautiful, and the water doesn't smell funny :) 

keeping tabs

I try to keep my posts focusing on the positive, but lately i find my self upset, my program is a longer program then most participants, knowing that most everyone is leaving in the next few weeks, it hard to say  good bye to so many people at once. Its weird everyone had to make such good friends right off the bat, goodbyes are not something i have ever been good at.

As for my next adventure, well i am not going to say yet, because it isn't set in stone, but lets just say i have to cross an ocean :)

this is what you missed...

      So Disney is everything I imagined and more, when you have a good DAY you have a great day, but when you have a bad day, it takes all self control not to round house guest, and tell them what you really think of them. While I have been here I have come to face such different challenges that I wasn't expecting. I was not expecting the toll standing for such long hours. I wasn't expecting the challenge of leaving so early for work, or the lack of car or the guilt of being here with out my sisters or my truest friend in the whole world.
       I have truly made such wonderful friends while being down here, and some attractive manly figures! wink wink!!!! What shocks me the most, is when I look into the mirror, and i think of the girl I used to look at a few years ago. I have changed in so many ways. I would like to think that I have gotten stronger. I am so much more confident. I stand on my own personality here, I am not someones daughter, someones student, someones friend, someones staff. Here i had nothing to stand on but my own personality and my integrity. I could of been anyone that I wanted to be down here.
      TOday i had a wonderful time today, even though I worked till 2 am, but its the kiddos that make it wonderful, and the adults that are so happy that make it worth every hour i stand. "princess keylegh" today was her birthday she turned 6, and she loves kindergarden, and can spell her name all by herself. OH BUT dear dear sophia and her parents that let her talk with me for 20 minuets. You made my DAY! I love all the smiling babies. I love my dear ROOMATES! they are so wonderful. I don't know what i would do with out those girls!
so here is what you have missed...
I went to the club, and nearly drowned, but foam party was a success, but working at 9 am after being out till 4 am. not my smartest moment. but no one remembers the night you got enough sleep right?

 On leap year I waited in line for like 4 hours after working a 10 hour shift just to meet the dreamy disney character there is.....

 oh isn't that smolder sexy???

 so down here there are lizards EVERYWHERE, even in our apartment which i named Baskalisk and my roommates wouldn't let me keep him :)

 I DROVE- and nothing bad happened!

 I SWAM in the OCEAN!

 I met the one and only Kenneth, and he used the force to make us waves!

 I just adore my livvy Berry! Meeting her was inspired

 WHat else can you do when you are the third wheel, ruin romantic pictures! photo bomming is my new favorite past time now. BTW

 Friendships that will last forever.

 I love my people! and apple bees at 1 am

 we are bringing sexy back

 YOu are not fully dressed with out a smile

 say whhhhhhaaaaaaa!

 YOu know i love my triple chocolate meltdown

 and last but not least. what i do everyday! and well that timeless costume that makes me want to take lives :)

As for me, I will make my own magic, I go where the wind takes me, I will count on no one to make my happiness for me. I am not in control of life, but I am in control on how I let it effect me. I am one happy girl.