I am young and under paid

Pet peeve time!  So I hate when people use their past as an excuse why they can't do something. I don't care, you can! You can make the choice, you can leave the situation, you can move on, you can do anything you truly put your mind to. Believe me I know what having a shitty past means, True it never leaves you but you don't have to put in you pocket, and pull it out all the time. Put it in a nice little box, and label it as what ever you want, things to change, mistakes not to make, be the chain breaker. every past is different. 
I do understand pain, I understand there is that day. I have nearly 21 years of experience on the matter, It took me such a long time to get to this point. 


on a more positive note, I am so content right now, I have a great not real date last night with my wonderful friend Fred<3 his boyfriend was working so we spent the day together. We went swimming, and watched AVENGERS, and ate dinner at Downtown Disney, and watched wishes. There is something so intoxicating about the feel of Disney down here. I love it, I can spend the rest of my life coming here.


and what it all comes down to. is that no ones really got it figured out just yet
and everything is going to be quite alright.